Yeah, I'm still around. I seriously haven't been motivated to do much of anything but brainless activities since my last post back in February, though I'll get to that later. My big news is, I am pregnant again and I am having a boy. Liam (what we're gonna name the little squirt) is due December 2, and I am just as excited and nervous the second time around as I was the first. I was really expecting another girl! I've been getting complacent, and then WHABAM, I get a big shocker. I'm used to taking care of a (now two years old!) little girl, so having a boy will definitely change things up a bit in the Webb household. Good thing most of the big stuff I already have, like the car seat, bouncy chair, stroller, etc, are gender neutral. Hell, even if they weren't I would still use 'em. Too poor to buy more baby stuff! (Though I must admit, I did buy my first little boy sleeper while shopping with mi madre today. It irritates me that boy clothes are limited to trucks or sports decor. Both Rory and I are quite artsy, thankyouverymuch, and don't want to make our son one of those manly men, if you get my drift.)
Not to keep Fiona out of the spotlight, she just celebrated her second birthday this past Monday. I can't believe my little girl is TWO! My Mom asked me if she was gonna go to preschool next fall. That is even weirder for me to think of her going to any kind of school ...
Anyways, onto more depressing matters. It seems that I can't find my art groove again. I have had art funks in the past, and some prolly just as long as this one has been, but I feel like I am losing it. Since march, I've prolly only done 5 or 6 different illustrations, all of which were commissions that I had to literally force myself to do. I don't know what to do, or how to get myself out of this. It's hard to explain, because I have lots of ideas for what I want to draw, like starting my own comic, or character illos from my stories, but the actual "design" of what I want to do is just not coming to me. For instance, I usually get an idea in my head for what I want to draw, like what sort of composition, and then I am off into that weird drawing voodoo and I can't stop until it is finished. But ... I haven't had that voodoo in a long time. I sincerely miss just DRAWING. I know that I should just be working it out and forcing myself to sketch, sketch, sketch, but I have tons of excuses not too. "I'm too busy, I am tired, I wanna catch up on Glee before season 2 starts, I wanna finish playing FF13 ..." the list goes on. If anybody happens to read this and has some ideas, send them my way! I'm getting desperate. Cross your fingers that this funk ends soon. (Prolly as soon as Liam is born, and I literally won't have ANY time for doodling with two kids to contend with!)
That's about all I've got for now. I really will try to keep this blog updated more often, at least to show I am still around and still serious about my little freelancing art gig. By the way, I am most definitely still taking commissions, despite my art funk! Maybe YOUR commission will be the ray of light to guide me from this crazy shadow!!
